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1/3/20

Dreampt that Spencer died while tripping on acid. He was with me and we were in my basement. He tried to climb onto the ping pong table because it appeared to him as a comfy bed and he wanted to go to sleep. But he had trouble climbing and lost his grip, slid off and broke his neck or something and died.


1/4/20

Dreampt I was with Dante and Owen at a ski resort. We were in a room with a lot of other men, and we were all sitting at a long table. Dante's dad put a beer down in front of me. I wanted to drink, but wasn't going to because I felt like Mom would disapprove. I glanced down the table and saw one of the men cutting up cocaine. Owen was doing it too. I felt a bit uncomfortable.

I was at the Kardashian's house. I was hanging out with Khloe. She was trying on a fluffy pink dress that she'd apparently worn to an award show or something recently. She asked me what I thought of her in the dress. It was slightly ill-fitting at the top so I didn't want to say anything. I felt kind of nervous to be hanging around her, like she was so cool and I really didn't want to be “uncool.” I wanted her to like me. I realized that the dress looked weird because the back of it wasn't closed. It had those pre-tailoring clamps on, but they weren't actually holding the two sides of the dress shut around her body.

She had a changing room in her house, which I thought was weird. It had a plush, carpeted floor and the color palette was beige and light pink. It felt like it was from the 90s. Like Laura Palmer's house, or like the waiting room outside the women's bathroom at Macys.

I told her I enjoyed hanging out with her and gave her a hug. The hug felt way too long, but I'm not sure if she felt awkward about it or even noticed. Then she told me she didn't want me to leave (I was only there visiting) and that I'm very “real” and not many people around her are. She played an audio recording for me of a man talking about sad emotions, like a poem or passage from someone's diary. I couldn't really comprehend what was being said, but I understood Khloe's intentions and the general vibe. She was showing it to me because it described how she felt.

Khloe showing me the dress.


1/5/20

Dreampt I was getting on a plane. For some reason Mom and I were allowed to board early. Boarding the plane we went up this wide, tall staircase with lots of people watching. I stuck my ass out and did a comical walk and the people laughed.

Then an airline worker came onto the plane and told us that a passenger had died. A little while later, another worker came, and told us that another passenger had died, someone who hadn't gotten on the plane yet. I got worried because Charlie hadn't boarded the flight. I asked for details on who'd died and the flight attendant said something about the person having big and curly hair. I felt the worst pain and panic and I ran off the airplane into this strange, vast, warehouse-like room with a bunch of hospital beds. Charlie was being led by a doctor to one of the beds. Even though he was moving, there was a feeling of inevitability and I knew he was already dead. My “vision” of the warehouse was just a symbolic display of his death. I felt intense despair and woke up.


1/7/20

I was with Mom in a store like Charlotte Russe with inexpensive and kinda trashy clothing. I flagged down a sales associate and asked if their bras were true to size. The associate, who I think was wearing glasses, went to check. She came back and told me that they were extremely untrue to size.


1/9/20

I was on a big ship and it was capsizing. Specifically, I remember before the ship started sinking I saw Jack and Jasmine at the top of a set of red spiral stairs. I don't remember most of the dream very clearly. I think that a big premise was that I was trying to get to somewhere on the ship, but I couldn't find it. When I saw Jack and Jasmine it made me realize that I was on the wrong floor. Whatever floor they were on had a big pool or waterpark-like recreation area in the center.

Next scene I remember is being in a hallway with some guys my age. One of them was blonde and reminded me of Tom Sawyer, but not so mischievous just very “heart of America”-ian. The ship was rocking heavily and we were tumbling back and forth down this kinda dark hallway. The ship rocked heavily to the port side and I remember looking down the hallway and seeing the circular window completely submerged underwater. Up until this point I didn't consider that the ship might actually sink. I thought the way we were rocking was scary and unusual, but not deadly. After seeing how far underwater we were I felt way more panicked.


1/10/20

I was arriving back from somewhere with Dad, Charlie, and Julia. We needed to drop Charlie off on the west bank and I needed to go to the east. Neither Charlie nor Dad seemed to have any sense of direction which surprised me. I led us to the “west bank” and Charlie left.

Now Dad, Julia, and I were on the west bank at a bus station. We were walking through this strange architectural glass dome hallway. We had to wait around for the campus connector shuttle. A campus connector came by, but it had a scrolling message which read something like “no longer looping” or something that indicated it was going in one direction now and would not circle around. Like once it reaches its final stop it will be out of commission for the night. I thought “ok, we'll just wait for the next. It'll probably be around 5 mins.”

I was sitting and waiting and now Zoey was next to me. Eric Andre showed up and put on a little performance in a grassy knoll area beneath me and by the road where the busses went by. He dressed up like a tree and I said something to him. Then I realized that the reason the campus connector shuttle was taking so long to arrive was because the one I'd seen go by had actually been the last one. I felt stupid that I hadn't understood that's what the scrolling sign was saying.

I looked in the fridge and saw boxes of leftover sushi. I got the sushi earlier in the dream, but I don't remember that part anymore. I ate the leftover sushi but there was a lot of it, so I didn't eat it all.


1/11/20

I was at [college] in what I guess was my physics class. I was sitting in a corner looking at a dollhouse with another kid. He offered me a cigarette and I accepted, “for later.” I think he was flirting with me. What he had said when offering was something like “I still have the cigarette I'd promised you.”

Then I was in my chemistry class and Zoey was there. The class was very unstructured and we were just watching videos on a smartboard or from some projector in the front of the room. It didn't seem like anyone was paying attention. I had the kid next to me show me his computer science homework.

After class I saw a girl openly smoking a joint in the hallway, she made no effort to conceal it, and part of the hallway floor was on fire too. I went outside to where I thought I'd parked my car, but it wasn't there and I realized I'd moved it. When I finally got to where I'd actually parked my car I wanted to smoke the cigarette, but I'd parked close to people, which I regretted. I wanted privacy. I decided I'd move my car back to the place I thought I'd parked it in the first place. I also for some reason opened and chugged a can of beer. The can was completely gold.

I pulled up to the new parking space and it was empty. Not many people around. But as soon as I got there more people arrived. Grace B. came over to my car and just climbed into the driver's seat. She was super talkative and aggressive and wouldn't just let me “get away.” She started driving but I didn't really mind. I had nothing else to do.

She brought us farther and farther away from the school until we were surrounded by fields and trees and cliffs. I kept trying to look out the windshield but I couldn't see the road ahead of us. I got worried that she'd damage the car because we seemed to be almost falling down this bumpy road. Finally I was assertive enough and asked her to stop the car. On the side of the road I saw these two animals lying on the ground dying. One of them was big and unnaturally colored blue and pink, and the other was smaller and Lola colored. They were like dogs/deers/Dragon-Ball world animals. I wanted to help them but felt like I couldn't.

I went into this abandoned looking house and saw that people worked there. It was a wildlife rescue sort of place and they were trying to preserve this abandoned town, the one Grace and I had stumbled into.


1/12/20

I went into the “new room” in Grandma Sandy's house and discovered it was all decrepit. This “new room” is the same one I've had in dreams before about Grandma's house, but in past dreams I rarely go into the room, even though I'm usually pretty curious about it. The reason I never go into “the room” (which is more like multiple rooms, almost a whole new section of the house) is because I feel like it's secretive a little bit. Like it's none of my business. I get the feeling like it's a special area for Grandma and Pops and I won't “get it” if I go in. It's complex though, and this description doesn't do the feeling justice.

Anyways, I had to go to the bathroom, but Julia was already using the one downstairs. Then I remembered there was a bathroom in the “new room,” so I decided I'd use that one instead of waiting. I opened the door to the room and started going in, but I heard voices from inside and stopped. I was really surprised to hear voices. They were coming from construction workers. I decided not to go in, though soon after I found myself back at the door. I opened it and, for the first time in the dream, actually looked in. It was all run down and partially torn up. Straight ahead of me I saw a wall with cabinets and counters, and maybe a sink. Between me and the wall was a table. Julia and Charlie were by me now as I looked around. I looked away to tell them to look into the room. When I looked back, for a split second it looked completely perfect and tidy, like it would've looked in its “glory days.” It was Pops' lab or some place that had to do with his work. I felt his colleagues' energy there too. It was like I was feeling the energy of the place as it once had been. I did a double take and when I looked back again it was all decrepit. I was so confused by this. I asked Julia if she saw it too. I thought I was hallucinating or something.

Then I turned to the side and Pops was standing next to me. He had his belly like before he was sick, but I couldn't see his face. I felt an indescribable feeling. He told me something, but I don't remember what. It was something like “look at” or “listen to” professor something that starts with a G. When I woke up I thought it was “graynard” but I don't think that's it.

Then I went into the room with Charlie and Julia and it was all decrepit again. We went into a room (inside the room) that was all cement and there was a large rectangular dark discolored area on the floor where some object had once been, but was now removed. In past times when I'd been in the room, I remember there being a big comfy bed with lots of multi-colored comforters and pillows. I think there was a bathtub too. And hammocks and maybe more beds.


1/13/20

It was raining outside and it was late at night but it was bright out. Outside the living room window on the backyard deck Mom and I saw a green cow with a little head. Originally it was a small green bird that Mom pointed out, but at some point it became a cow. Then a little horse came down the hill too. It might've been the color purple and it also had a small head. They were “rain variations” of regular animals.


1/29/20

Dreampt I was in a bath house, but it was also a classroom and some class was going on. I was with Lydia P. or Georgina F. and we were in a hot tub naked in the back of the classroom. We weren't paying attention and I think the teacher was upset with us. At some point I became aware that being naked was weird and I wanted to cover up, but I couldn't find my clothes. At the end of the dream, I was stirring a big plastic bucket full of paint that Lydia or Georgi was holding up. As I stirred, the contents revealed themselves and there was fruit at the bottom. Specifically kiwi.


1/31/20

I was in London on vacation. I was walking through a busy street market and I saw a coin on the ground. I picked it up and it was a British coin, which I called “a peso- no- a euro- no- a pound.” The coin had a design on it from an olympic games that was held in Britain in either 2003 or the 70s.

The dream morphed and then I was in Chicago with Mom, Charlie, and Julia. We were eating in the dining area of a high-rise building. The Jonas Brothers were there too. Charlie pointed out to me a building that was swaying back and forth. I looked at it. The Jonas Brothers were sitting in front of the window that the building was visible through and I thought they thought I was staring at them. When they realized I was looking at the building behind them, they turned around and stared too. The building kept rocking.

Then the building tilted very far, more than it had been before, and it crashed over into the building next to it and fell. It was shocking. Even though the building had been swaying, I didn't expect it to fall. I ran over to the window and saw two or three people on the ground who had been crushed by debris. One man was wearing a pink hat and clothes and was writhing around in the street in pain. I started sobbing and had to look away. Later, I found out the reason the building fell was because of vibrations caused by an airplane going by. I asked a pilot about it and he said there's no way to prevent the dangerous vibrations, they just hadn't been public knowledge until now, so no one was worried about them.

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