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2/13/22

We were in a house—I really don't remember it well, just snippets. I think there was a feeling of not expecting him to be there, and a feeling of reconnection after spotting each other. I just remember I was kissing his hand. And like, holding his hand to my face. And I worried for a second that he would be grossed out by the lotion from my face getting on his hand, but he didn't mind. He was very relaxed. And enjoying it, I think. There was a mutual feeling of affection.

Later, I was sitting on a couch with him. Not cuddling, but I was sort of leaned-over toward him. And a group of people came over, some of his colleagues. Most of them were women, like women in their 30s and they were all sort of nerdy. They came over to us, so I sort of tried to stop leaning toward him, to make it look like I was just sitting normally by him, so as not to be awkward and PDA-ish and make the women uncomfortable. The woman asked R. if he'd finally tell them how he and his ex-girlfriend broke up. The way they asked it was like, “so are you finally going to tell us how you and Erica (or some E name) broke up!?” Like, jovial. So he went off with a couple of them to tell them.

I stayed on the couch and this girl talked to me. Woman, I suppose. She was one of his peers. Early 30s, compsci. She was a little chubbier and I think her hair was dyed an unnatural color. She was very sweet and friendly. She said to me, once he left, something like, “you know he's going to leave you too?” In the way of a friendly warning, like she knows him and has seen his behavior in the past with women and she was just letting me know. It was friendly though, not rude at all. And I was like, “you don't know the half of it!” but I had to stop myself because I wasn't sure how much she knew. I'm pretty sure in the dream we weren't supposed to be together, like it was still a secret. Even though everyone could obviously see us sitting by each other on the couch and surmise. Anyway, she also told me that Erica was their old PhD advisor or something. Someone older than them and influential and that R. and she were dating. And I guess the breakup was something interesting.

After talking with the girl, I went down to this basement area and stood outside Hejhal's classroom with these two older men. The three of us were there for some reason, like to give a demonstration to the class or just to see Hejhal later or something. Then, after this, in a different classroom, I was actually in the class and Hejhal was explaining something. I feel like it had to do with auto mechanics. I don't remember. Dante was in the class and tons of other people I'm close to. We had these pieces of paper on our tables and we, along with our partners/groups/the people we were sitting with were supposed to put the papers in order. Based on something. I really don't remember. My group, or at least I, was really struggling to keep up with and understand what was going on. I saw Tria’s name written on one of the pages, and I was like “oh! she must've taken this class in the past!”


2/18/22

I watched a girl, or I was the girl, I don't know, some girl character. I think it was me. She was talking to the front desk of a jail, because she wanted to visit someone, a prisoner. And they weren't allowing her what she wanted. I watched as she did something telepathically, she moved something with her mind, which caused a commotion at the prison. Everything was sort of a free-for-all, so she could just walk in. The guards were preoccupied with the chaos. I went into the prison with her. I remember walking around. I remember walking past a guy and girl who were walking their dog. I remember walking around as if I were in a supermarket, kind of. Lots of walking. In this prison.

I went to some low income housing, I followed Mom there. We went inside and were seated by a wall of records. Record bins, bins filled with records. Mom had business there or something. It was nighttime.


2/19/22

I was walking down the street with Ben, Julia, and Nikocado Avocado (I think). We ran into Evan G. Evan had take-out that was bought for him by his employer. He worked as a dog walker, or something to do with dogs, and the people whose dogs he walked would always buy him take-out food, so he always had an excess of it.

I said “hi” to Evan and he invited us to hang out with him for a bit, so we did. He gave us food. Quesadillas from Qdoba or something. Evan was kinda mean to Nikocado. Eventually Nikocado left to go to Qdoba to get more quesadillas because Evan wasn't letting him eat them at his house.


2/24/22

I took Lola on the bus. Julia worked at some place that was located in what seemed somewhere almost underground. Not a place frequented by many. I took the bus over to her, then took the bus back one stop and got Lola, then had Lola get on the bus. I barely remember this part of the dream. The bus driver had nice things to say about Lola and the people on the bus liked her too.

Followed a guy onto the bus. I asked him what his name was—asked if his name was “Will”. I was being creepy. I had a ticket of his that he bought in 1980. He was shocked by that and thought it was cool. We looked at the ticket, actually it was from '89.

Then outside in the dark. I was walking home, running in the dark. I ran to the other side of the street because I thought I heard the bus coming. I got to the bus stop and this big billboard was there. I accidentally pressed the “safety” button and a loud high pitched noise started, then I woke up.

I was taking a test in Linear Algebra, but it was not math related at all. I had to read a short story and write something about it. I think the story was in another language. It was about this guy, the question was asking about his character or something. There seemed to be this theme of like, abusers becoming abusers. Almost pedophilic. Like, the main character was a high school kid and I think he was grooming someone younger than him. Also he was gay. I read a line of the story that mentioned the sabbath, so I assumed the character was Jewish. But I think he was Chinese, actually. Or he was Jewish and Chinese. I was struggling hard to comprehend the story and also I was running out of time to finish the test. I started writing sideways on my paper, like curling up the side because I ran out of space.


2/26/22

I saw this kid walking his dog in the neighborhood, but he was doing a shit job like pulling it around or getting pulled around by it. Then the kid became an adult and I was walking with him and we had Lola with us too. And Julia was with us too. I was annoyed as fuck with this guy and his poorly behaved dog and I couldn't wait to get rid of him so Julia and I could continue walking nicely.

I went to a restaurant with Owen. He ordered a sandwich and when it came it was ridiculous how shitty it was. I had a similar experience.

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